You think incorrectly, and poorly. Like most westerners, I barely ever thought about Russia until the mass media started shrieking lies about it constantly. Same with Iraq, Libya, Syria, and every other Official New Bad Guy the imperialist propaganda machine has shoved down our throats. I didn’t have a gushy fangirl crush on Saddam, Gaddafi or Assad, and I certainly don’t have one on Putin. It amazes me that this is a notion that happens in people’s heads.